It's better than nothing!

This week I lost half a pound. I told him it was better than nothing when he grimaced and I  pointed out that it was rather a lot really when you consider a packet of butter! Anyway it is infinitely better than putting on.

The day was okay/ish to start with. A bit late with meals again but I did eat something. Breakfast was easy:

Lunch was thrown together but the bread was my HEb.

The Laughing Cow was a quarter of my HEa!

When I got to class I was hungry so I had a HiFi (6syns). I felt fine until I got home. I made my usual Wednesday night jacket potato and had it with cheese as the rest of my HEa. No photo as I was hungry so I just ate!!!

I wish I could say I stopped there but I didn't. It was not a good evening. I devoured a piece  of cake, some Bakewell tart I had been given and then another HiFi. I don't want to think about the syns. Why I did it I have no idea because as was predictable I was awake at 2.00 am feeling very sick. Just too many syns and too much sugar for anyone let alone a diabetic. I am ashamed of myself. 😠

Enough already!

About a year ago I remember how hungry I used to feel if any meal was running late. I even woke up hungry for breakfast and eager to prepare it and eat! I spent a great deal of time thinking about food for all the wrong reasons. Now, my weight loss may have slowed right down but I believe my food cravings have too.

I am aware that breakfast is getting later and later for instance. I am not in a hurry and actually consciously plan to eat later. You might well think that it's a good thing. I am not so sure. Take today for example. Things I had to do took longer than I had imagined. The plan was to eat breakfast between meetings. The trouble is the first one overran and the next person was waiting when I had finished.  No time to eat! And so it went on. Lunch time came and went and it was only at about 3.00 pm that I remembered I had not eaten. In fact I hadn't even finished the coffee I made at 9.00 am. In order to then eat something I had to completely miss another appointment.  I really hated doing that especially as I wasn't particularly hungry. So you see I think I have moved on too far and probably am in danger of  never eating enough. What a shift!

Anyway, no breakfast photo as there was none!

Lunch/ tea was leftovers from the night before:

I did also manage a blueberry yoghurt and a banana.

The plan was for SW fish and chips tonight but that nearly never happened. Time again! I had phone calls and emails to do so dinner was late. I just knew I had to bother. I even managed to throw some salad on the plate!

So I have not yet had nearly enough super free foods. I haven't had my healthy extras either! There was a time when I would really be pleased with myself for having eaten so little, but I now know that is not good. I have now to polish off some berries and yoghurt, then I must make a hot chocolate (HEa plus 2 syns) and have a HiFi (HEb).

Message to self - eat more in an organised way!

Maybe it's inches......

How does that work? People sometimes say: "perhaps you have lost  inches this week".  In fact I have said it about myself from time to time. There are occasions when it definitely feels as if I have lost inches, when my clothes feel looser but the scales say I haven't lost any weight.  I can't seem to reconcile that in my head. How can you be smaller yet not be lighter? Anyway, this morning I am sure it was inches rather than weight!

Just before Christmas I am ashamed to say a favourite suit felt very tight and in fact the stitching along the zip broke! Last week I repaired them and when I put them on this morning they felt much looser again. So ....... Inches definitely but perhaps not pounds!

Back to work today. I was super organised with my food though. I had mixed my porridge (HEb) with mango yoghurt last night so just mixed in some berries - yummy breakfast, and very filling too.

Lunch was leftover rice from last night together with some ratatouille that I made yesterday. Followed that with a blueberry yoghurt and a pear.

I did succumb to a biscuit mid afternoon, I am annoyed with myself as I wasn't hungry but felt desperate for something sweet. I am guessing at 5 syns for that.

Being super organised today, the bolognese sauce for dinner was already made! Just had to stick on some pasta and veg. So this was dinner, with some left for lunch tomorrow!

I have also  polished  off some strawberries with 0% yoghurt and plan to use my HEa for some hot chocolate later (2syns). I might even have another biscuit (5syns)!

The day after the day before!

Today has been more controlled. Well, something had to give. I have tried hard to get back on track but the age old problem of convincing myself it's worth it has been a tussle. It seems that when I have been off the plan even for a very short while I try to tell myself that the week is a write off so I might as well eat what I like and start again next week.  It is likely that I won't have lost anything again this week so now it's damage limitation. If I don't sort myself out then I will be gaining weight completely unnecessarily. If I have already gained I don't want it to be more by Wednesday!

So, what has today looked like? This was breakfast:

2 slices of toast = HEb. It. Made a real change from eggs!

I got back to cooking again on Sunday morning and made dinner for this evening, dinner for tomorrow and lunch for work tomorrow! Feels good to be somewhat organised as I haven't done that in a while. There was a little left over chicken curry and rice for lunch so I added so e mixed veg and hey presto! Instant lunch:

I followed that with a big strawberry yoghurt. Throughout the afternoon I had more of the Irish Cream coffee and an amaretto flavoured one. They used up quite a bit of my HEa. I spent the afternoon re-watching the first two episodes of Line of Duty. It was recommended by a friend and I was gripped when I watched them back to back the other evening. Made my other half watch them today so that he would be up to speed for episode three! I couldn't miss a minute despite having already seen it so  I never even thought about snacking!

Dinner was an old pre SW recipe of pork and peppers. It's a firm family favourite so I adapted it to fit SW. It was easy to replace the oil for Fry Light (the new garlic flavour is amazing!) and I just missed out the usual flour. Ok it wasn't as thick but it was just as tasty. No-one seemed to miss the wine that's usually in it! Maybe the chicken stockpot I used gave it enough flavour! Anyway served with rice and peas it was lovely. Plenty of onions, mushrooms and peppers in it to give me loads of super free veg.

Was quite full afterwards so I waited a while for my berries and Liberte 0% yoghurt. Worth the wait too!

All in all, today has been a much better day.  I've just had 6 syns - my favourite Curly Wurly. So perhaps I can stop being so cross with myself and try to get back to some kind of normal plan. Then again, am I eating enough? Am I over compensating for a not so good Saturday?! Oh for goodness sake ...............!

The art of Self sabotage

Who do I fool? If I can't be honest with myself, what hope is there?! People have commented to me that they are surprised at my honesty in these blogs. Well I started to blog because I had lost some control and wanted to grab it back. The only way to do that is to be honest about what I am eating. There is no point otherwise. For a couple of weeks it was working superbly but yet again I have hit a few blips! No excuses now. So what has happened?

Yesterday was not all bad. I started well with a change of breakfast! Plenty of mushrooms and tomatoes with an egg and a piece of very crispy bacon.

That set me up for a long day of visiting work, a meeting and then shopping. Lunch was quite late but again healthy. I made a Laughing Cow and salad sandwich (half HEa and my HEb). I followed that with a yoghurt and some fruit.

I bought some Irish Cream coffee on Natasha's recommendation so had a cup of that too. It was not at all bad! Then. Had a Curly Wurly (6 syns)

Keen to get it right, I looked up chicken dopiazza online. I did tweak the recipe a little but it was still 'free' and very tasty. I added some rice and tomato and onion salad.

So where is the sabotage you ask? Well, I was relegated to the other room as rugby was on. I went off fairly happily with fresh berries and yoghurt. That finished the 'voices' were suddenly back, and fairly easily I gave in. I sat and ate a handful of huge white chocolate and strawberry buttons that I had at Christmas. They were so delicious but I knew I should not eat them. To make matters worse I then felt very sick!

So today I started again with great resolve to stick to plan. I had my usual boiled egg and crispbreads (HEb) followed by fruit. I then set off for my eye test. Of course I needed new glasses and I left there having coughed up £358 for the  pleasure! I was sorely tempted to revive myself with lunch or at least a high syns coffee but I resisted and waited until I got home for this:

I retired to the other room again as rugby was on, taking an amaretto coffee and a HiFi with me (6 syns). So again where is the sabotage? Wait for it....... 

I knew we were going to a barn dance for a friend's birthday.  I had planned not to eat anything but In the interval a huge sausage in a roll appeared for me. I resisted for all of five minutes then ate it! I wish I could say I stopped there but I didn't. I followed that with a veggie burger. I did dance a bit so may have worked some of it off. Did I stop there? NO I DID NOT. Once home I wrestled with the voices again and have just given in and eaten a small piece of birthday cake. It was yummy! I think I had better go to bed before the voices talk me into anything else. I blame the voices but who is the saboteur? I AM!

Out to lunch

Not a bad day today, though I did go out to lunch. I have eaten more just to see if it does make a difference! I had an egg for breakfast, with toast (HEb) and then some fruit.

Luckily my friend and I agreed on a restaurant that lends itself to the SW plan! I have been there several times and I usually have the same thing. Again I didn't take a photo in the restaurant, but I have downloaded a picture from their website. Didn't exactly have what is in the picture! I started with dolma (vine leaves stuffed with rice). I am sure there is a bit of olive oil in them somewhere so I reckon 1 syn. I followed with chicken shish (plain grilled chicken pieces as in the pic), spicy bulgar (not rice as in the pic) and salad with no dressing. The pic shows lamb doner which I did not have! Not sure why I am including the pic, but the food does look good! I didn't have wine - just sparkling water- and had coffee (2 syns for milk in coffee today).I also had bread. I simply cannot resist it, so add 7.5 syns.

Lunch was very filling and so my plan to eat fruit and super free foods during the day did not happen, save for a pear around tea time! Dinner used my HEa in one hit - cheese sauce with skimmed milk and low fat cheese. I made cauliflower cheese with some very lean bacon and peas. (2 syns for the flour in the sauce).

This evening I have had some berries and Liberte 0% yoghurt. I still feel very full! I have written out my menu for the week. Just need to try to stick to it now.

When is enough not enough?

I haven't been keeping up with blogging this week! It's strange how when I am not working all my other routines seem to go awry. Anyway, I wasn't feeling too great yesterday . I think that is probably down to the fact that what I ate on Monday was not usual for me. My stomach really doesn't appreciate too much of a change! So I started the day with an egg and some crispbreads (HEb) as well as a banana. Apart from coffee I didn't eat anything else until mid afternoon. Then I had a jacket potato with some beans and 15g of cheese (half HEa). I followed that with a large bowl of berries.

During the late afternoon I did manage to eat a pear. Apart from that I had nothing until I ate dinner. I made sausage stew from the new magazine. Thankfully I halved the amount of chili as it was very spicy! I also had some sprouts and potatoes. That was followed by some strawberries and 0% yoghurt.

During the evening I again treated myself to a HiFi (6 syns). I didn't have the other half of my HEa.

This morning I started the day with banana on toast. (HEb) I intended also to have a yoghurt but promptly forgot. I didn't have anything else until around 3.00 pm when I made myself chicken and stir fry vegetables followed by a yoghurt and a pear.

I managed a HiFi in the afternoon (6syns). At weigh in tonight I maintained. It was a bit of a surprise as I feel this week I have lost inches. I thought I may have lost a little. Anyway, I have been thinking about it all this evening and I am wondering if I am eating enough. I listened to all that everyone else says they eat and then they seem to lose every week. Although I eat my HEb every day, I am not so consistent with my HEa and therefore I am not measuring it. I think I need to go back to my plans of two or three weeks ago and see exactly what I was eating. Something is going wrong somewhere. So, the question is: 'when is enough not really enough?'

Tonight I had my usual jacket potato with beans and then some strawberries. I wish I could say that was it but it hasn't been! I have been 'grazing' on all sorts that I should not, so I think I need to go to bed and start afresh tomorrow!

Just when it's going well..............

Well, for a Sunday it all went pretty well! My usual boiled egg and crispbreads (HEb) whilst listening to the Archers, followed by a bowl of grapes.  The sun was shining - a very strange occurrence! I thought I needed to keep busy so that I didn't spend most of the day feeling hungry and I was anxious to finish my knitting so I got on with that. It sure did occupy my mind which meant there was no snacking. Sunday is one day when I find it difficult not to raid the fridge or look for snacks between meals but not this Sunday!

Lunch was late as I wanted to finish the final sleeve of the jacket. With just the sewing together to complete I grabbed a very snacky lunch:

The cheese was my HEa. I really like to accompany cheese with a juicy pear these days - so much nicer than an apple!

I tried hard to watch 'Captain Phillips' but I just could not sit through it. I have no doubt it is a great film and deserving of the BAFTAS it won but I am afraid I just do not appreciate films with such violence.  A good chance then to make a traditional Sunday dinner.  Roast lamb with plenty of vegetables. Potatoes and parsnips cooked in Fry Light are just delicious. Gravy was made with stock pot and corn flour (1 syn)

Fruit and that wonderful Liberte 0% natural yoghurt for desert and then I treated myself to a Curly Wurly (6 syns). Before bedtime I had finished the jacket!!!

So Sunday was good but then Monday has been difficult. I was out all day with my daughter and my friend. Knowing that food would be a problem I made sure I had fruit and yoghurt for breakfast before setting off. It was going to be a long day. I did try to make good choices. I had toasted sandwich for lunch which I counted as my HEb but will also have to count as syns because it must have been double the HE allowance - 4 syns methinks.  A mocha coffee must have  even been a further 4 syns.

We did a lot of walking during the day so maybe all that was not too bad. I had plain rice with a Wagamamma curry before getting the train home. Together with the starter of prawns and gyozo it must have been about another 6 syns. So, 14 syns in total but add to that the mints I ate on the train, probably another 8 syns, I was well over today.

Not easy when you are with other people but I did try not to overdo things far more than I ever have done in the past. I will have to make a supreme effort tomorrow but typically as it is half term my head is aching and I have such a sore throat. Wonderful!

Wot? No chips?

We usually eat the same thing in this house, though occasionally meals get out of sync. That's generally when there are leftovers to eat up and I am none too keen on those! There are also things that I really don't like and just sometimes I will cook something just for my husband. He has a penchant for haggis and today they were on offer. I can't even stand the smell so he is lucky that one found its way into my trolley! 

We dodged the rain and got the supermarket shop done but then it crashed down again! I had my usual boiled egg and crispbreads (HEb) together with some fruit. There was no way I was going out again so I picked up the knitting I had started and cracked on with it. By late lunch time I had finished one side and had started on a sleeve! Lunch was one of my favourites - risotto. Teamed up with some vegetables it was very filling! I also had a yoghurt and an orange.

I picked up the knitting again and tried not to think of anything sweet. In the end I gave in and made a 'chocolate cake in a mug' and had it with some 0% yoghurt. Not bad for 2 syns. My HEa was disappearing in numerous cups of coffee throughout the day.

Now Saturday night usually means chips, but they don't really go with haggis! Carrot and swede does apparently so I was left wondering what I could have with that! I was missing the chips, so nothing else for it - bring on the jacket potato! The chicken was just plain roasted. I treated myself to a small amount of butter on my potato (5syns).

During the evening I had some blackberries with 0% yoghurt and I also had a HiFi bar (6syns). I managed to complete the sleeve I was knitting; only one more to go. So, not a chip in sight and I did miss them. Well, half term this week so it's definitely chip night at least once in the week!

It's fine for fish, it's fine for frogs........

It's raining cats, it's raining dogs, it's falling from the sky...............

It sure is and doesn't look set to stop at any time soon. I didn't blog last night as I sat here listening to the wind howl and the rain lash. At one point I thought the windows were going to crash in! They were fine but one fence panel was down this morning.

I started the day in the rain too. The traffic was dreadful so I was late and my first appointment was early. Result = no time for breakfast. Bad! Truth is my appointment lasted until after 12.00 so I settled yet again for a coffee and a banana! Lunch was a slight improvement but I ate it whilst I was working. That's never a good idea as it doesn't feel like I have eaten if I don't stop and concentrate on the meal. Anyway, I did eat Laughing Cow Light (1/2 HEa) with crispbreads (HEb), pickles and tomatoes. I followed that with kiwi, pineapple and mango.

Sure enough it was raining at the end of the day so I drove home with it crashing down. It is so depressing and so easy to comfort eat! I would have given almost anything to be making stew with fluffy dumplings followed by something stodgy with custard. Dream on eh? I ended up with smoked haddock, cabbage and carrots. Not even stodgy mashed potato to go with it!

So there we are - back where I started this blog. Listening to the wind and rain I curled up with the cats and treated myself to a Curly Wurly! The fish and the frogs are thriving out there!

Let's talk about yesterday!

I find Thursdays challenging. It's the day after weigh in and the beginning of a new week. That means to me either 'I have a new week to try hard to stick to plan and get a good weight loss' or 'well, I have a whole week, so I might as well let up on myself for one day as I can catch up for the rest of the week!' I teeter between the two and to be honest I don't always make the right choice! Yesterday was a 'teetering' kind of start, especially as I had put on half a pound.

With little voices in my head pulling against each other I resolved to try my best to stick to plan. Have you heard those voices? "Go on, treat yourself. It won't make much difference." "No, be good. Stick to plan. You know it's right". And so on. On the way to work I thought I would treat myself by stopping off at the supermarket for some bits and cashing in on the free coffee with my loyalty card. I love it - a huge cup of rich black  coffee! Did my shopping and arrived at the machine to find a huge "DO NOT USE. Cleaning in progress" sign. Humphhhh! I so very nearly fell at the first hurdle!
Decided though to buy an expensive jar of coffee to make my own!

Breakfast when I got to work looked like this:

Surprisingly filling, I have to say.

Lunch was a bit of a thrown together affair but tasty nonetheless. Bacon, onion, apple and potato salad with a tablespoon of Mayo (1 syn)

Working late at a governors meeting so I bought a box of shortbread for everyone. I managed to steer clear though and had a HiFi bar myself. How self righteous?! (6syns). When I arrived home just before 9.00 pm those little voices were back! It would be all to easy to go off the rails by grazing and snacking. The voices didn't win because this is what I had:

The roll was my HEb. I also had a bowl of fresh berries.

Those voices so often pop up in my head. It's about 50/50 to date who wins but I am trying to tip the balance. I ended the day with a hot chocolate (HEa) and another HiFi to go with it, so another 8 syns in total. A heavy day for syns but it was better than losing to those damned voices.

One up to the little demons!

People at SW class tonight were very kind about my blog. Thank for your words of encouragement- they are much appreciated. I will keep on blogging for a while more. Shelley, I don't know why we can't see your comments. Can you try again? There are some comments posted so it must be possible! I think you click the pencil icon, write your post then click on 'publish'. Thanks!

The scales were not kind to me as I gained half a pound. I knew it before I got to class. I can only blame those jelly babies - the little demons tempting me! Mind you they didn't hurl themselves into my mouth did they? I put them there so who is the demon?! Never mind. I'm starting a new week.

Breakfast today was my usual fruit and yoghurt. I like starting the day that way. Had a HiFi bar too (HEb)

Lunch was leftovers from last night and then some fruit. With the howling wind and lashing rain outside, hot chili was just the job!

No dinner until after class tonight - so late again. Did have one of my favourites - jacket potato (as you all know!) with peas, carrots and some savoury beef.

I still have my HEa so will treat myself to a hot chocolate this evening. From now of though, I live in a jelly baby free zone!

I'm pondering?

Yesterday was busy but not so bad. I had time to eat and was planned really. However, as it turned out, breakfast was late again - toast, Laughing Cow Lights x2 and a banana. (Half HEa and my HEb).

Lunch was late, so late in fact that I forgot to take a photo! Anyway it was leftover pork from the previous evening with potato, grape and pear salad (1 syn for the mayo). I didn't even eat my yoghurt!

I spent the evening with 3 of my favourite girls! I really enjoyed it. Spent time with the little ones and then had a good old chat to the big one  over cups of tea!!! I stayed longer than I intended and not once did I think about dinner or feel hungry! How strange? When I got home at around 10.30 pm I guessed I should eat something or I would wake up starving! A chili with rice was waiting for me so I heated half the portion and followed that with some fruit.

This morning I have been pondering on what seems to be happening in the past few days with regards to my relationship with food. I can't work out if I am going through an 'off my food' stage or if by planning more and concentrating on what I am doing I have naturally cut my portion sizes and cut down on between meals food. I don't have the answer so I think I just need to see how it pans out. Long may it last though, but I don't want to end up scuppering any weight loss by not eating enough. Now that's an oxymoron if ever I've heard one!!

Get thee behind me jelly babies!

Hey folks! Yesterday was a CBA kind of day. No inspiration for breakfast or lunch so again it was grab what I could find before setting off for work. Now that is not good. With meetings back to back from when I arrived it was 11.30 am before I could contemplate eating anything. I had even only managed 2 sips of a coffee so I was beyond eating by then but you just know you have to, right? The trouble is, in situations like that, once I start I can't stop!!! It took all my willpower just to eat the fruit and yoghurt that I had. I tussled in my head about escaping to the staff room in the hopes that it was someone's birthday and goodies would be there!!

Another two meetings later and lunch was very late. I grimaced at my couscous (I really can't get a liking for it) and threw on some chicken. Promising myself a Muller Light yoghurt and a large mug of coffee I manged to eat most of it! Trouble is, again I had the feeling I wanted to keep on eating! So, I busied myself with emails as a diversion tactic. Then ...... I sabotaged myself!  I went to the staff room to look for someone and the table was laden with bags of donuts - jam and custard ! I re-arranged the bags and was very sorely tempted but told myself 'NO!' So far so good, but then I spied a bag of jelly babies. Now they are such a weakness of mine that there was no way I could resist. :(
my two main sweetie weaknesses are said jelly babies and liquorice all sorts. Once I start I cannot stop until they are all gone. So sad for a grown woman!

Feeling really cross with myself I went home to cook dinner. Now that was planned. I made mustard onions on pork which is from the 100 Extra Easy days. It sure was easy to make and I thought was quite nice though the onions turned out a little sweet for my taste.

There were mumblings of dislike from others though which set me onto thinking about sweet things again. That's a real pattern with me - I am annoyed so I treat myself. How silly? I know I do it so I allow myself to do it unchecked! Anyway, the thoughts of perhaps a hot chocolate to use up my HEa or a HiFi for my HEb did nothing to curb my growing annoyance. I knew if it went on I would sabotage my whole day, give in to the demon jelly babies and find chocolate or worse to devour. So, there was nothing for it ........... By 9.30 pm I was in bed with the tv. Food was all the way downstairs and it truly had been a CBA kind of day! Shame on you jelly babies!

McDonalds? No thanks!

A boring day today as far as food is concerned! I browsed some SW magazines and some cook books but nothing was grabbing me.  Oh for a change in the weather as some sunshine would possibly inspire me to be more creative. I even stuck to the same old boiled egg for breakfast. (HEb - crispbreads).  My usual Sunday morning having breakfast whilst listening to The Archers!!

Right up until Christmas,  Sunday mornings were a time for cooking lunches for the week and preparing dinners. I seem to have veered from that and now struggle even to enthuse about the day's menu. I think perhaps I need to find some new recipes to inspire me. Maybe it's time to revisit the website?

I managed to complete quite a bit more of my knitting as I sat and pondered what to have for lunch so long that I just kept knitting! I eventually settled on jacket potato and beans followed by an orange and a pear.

Rugby was on AGAIN this afternoon so to get me through it I treated myself to a HiFi bar (6 syns). I even managed to get through half of my HEa in several cups of coffee! I was then a little enthused and prepared burgers for the evening, putting them in the fridge for a couple of hours so that they hold their shape. It is so much better making your own as they are much tastier than shop bought ones and are syn free!The taste bears no resemblance to fat filled commercial burgers and are so much healthier.  Served up with potatoes and broccoli with gravy (1syn for the corn flour) - delicious!

I have just had a big bowl of mixed berries with 0% yoghurt, so am now feeling rather full! A few more rows of knitting I think before I have a milky coffee and then get ready for another week at work!

Funny how you feel!

Apart from straying somewhat on Thursday evening I have really stuck to the plan. Why is it then that I have this funny feeling I am not losing weight this week? In fact I feel as if I am putting it on! The danger is that whilst I am feeling like this I will slide into just 'having a little bit' or just 'eating one' of things I know I should not. As it's the weekend I find it harder anyway as it is easier to go to the fridge or the cupboard than it is at work!

So I only bought what was on my shopping list at the supermarket this morning. I wasn't tempted by any 'bargains'. I had my usual boiled egg and crispbreads (HEb) for breakfast followed by some fruit.  Had my nails done today then met my friend and my daughter for a chat and a coffee. Well I had tea and that was all - no temptation to eat out.

Today's lunch was a strange mixture but delicious nonetheless- bacon and new potato with mango, mange tout, beans and coriander! I topped it with mayonnaise ( 1syn) . Also had a huge juicy orange and a Muller Light yoghurt with meringues (2 syns).

I have now finished the back of the jacket I started knitting last weekend. Concentrating on that stops me from wanting to snack. At this rate it will soon be finished.

Saturday evening is chips - usually -  and today was no exception! Teamed them up with cod and some steamed green vegetables. Just the job! Desert was strawberries and raspberries with more Liberte yoghurt! (I think I should buy shares in the company!)

A milky drink to come again tonight (HEa) - caramel coffee this time I think. So you see, I don't know why I am feeling like I am gaining weight. I am sorely tempted to weigh myself but that is probably the road to disaster!!

Treating myself.

Today I have felt awful - tired, washed out and lethargic mostly. I'm not sure how much of that is psychological as I went over my syns yesterday and was off plan. Stupid really to think like that. Anyway, I have been back on plan today. Well, the food has been ok but timings have been way out!

 I did plan meals but didn't organise myself! I ended up in one place with my breakfast in another! Then I was longer at the first place and by the time I was reunited with my food it was virtually lunch time. I survived up until then on black coffee and a banana! Lunch was quite healthy! Again half my HEa was 2 Laughing Cow Light triangles. My HEb was 6 crispbreads. My first treat to myself was the yummy fresh fruit salad!

I also ate a Muller Light during the afternoon. I resisted a bag of jam donuts thrust under my nose at
work! I really impressed myself!!! It was hard and I hesitated but managed to say "no thanks".

Dinner tonight was a big bowl of vegetable and bacon pasta. Couldn't resist the Liberte yoghurt as it seemed to be calling me from the fridge!!! So, I had a big bowl with some fruit and another treat - 2 mini meringues (2 syns).

So, a better day today. Time for a last treat! (8 syns) Happy weekend everyone.

A night off ........ Sort of.

Rain, rain, rain again! The day did not start well - soaking wet getting to and from the car, then arrived at work to discover I had a flat tyre. Good friend to the rescue! He changed the wheel for me in the rain! Bless you Dave!

Fruit and yoghurt again to start the day. Having discovered Liberte yoghurt I am just about addicted! Give it a try; it's really creamy.

Lunch was sort of thrown together as I had little time and was not planned. Anyway, the bread took care of my HEb and Laughing Cow half my HEa.

I should have planned more carefully as I knew I was going out to dinner and I should have thought that I would be eating bread! Well I didn't so that's a lesson learnt. Anyway, no photos of my meal as I really didn't have the nerve to take them in a restaurant! You will have to take my word for it.  Luckily it was a fish restaurant so temptation was at least halved! I had salmon mousse to start with, but it came with yummy chunky bread!  That had to be at least 7 syns. My main course was cod on lentils. I think that would be syn free but there was a crust of Apple and mustard. I didn't eat it all so it was probably about 2 syns. I avoided a side order of chips and opted for spinach. Well done me!!!!

I resisted a pudding and had a 'taste' of my friend's cheesecake - add 3 syns! I rarely drink but had a glass of red wine! 6 syns) so that's about 18 syns today. Oops! Well tomorrow is another day and I will be back on plan!

Yesssssss!!!

Weigh in night. This blogging must be helping as I lost 2lbs again! I have to say it has been so much easier than I thought. For a while I seemed to have lost the plot, but 2 good weeks and  I think I am on track again. Best not speak too soon though!

Fruit and yoghurt to start the day. I never seem to tire of it and some of the foreign berries do have quite a bit of flavour at the moment. Strange as that is not usual!

Met a friend for coffee today. Good to catch up on all the news/gossip! Lunch was late -  salad was very filling - vegetarian sausages, new potatoes, apple and grapes with a tablespoon of Mayo (1syn). I struggled to finish it. Muller lite yoghurt to follow!

It was a good job that lunch was late as dinner was even later! I don't eat until after class on Wednesdays and as we are getting busier, I am home later. I did have a Hi Fi bar at class (HEb) which kept me going.  Mind you, I nearly always have my favourite jacket potato on Wednesday. Tonight I threw together a quick salad and topped the potato with 15g of grated cheese (half HEa). Yummy!

I still have my milky drink (other half of HEa) and am going to treat myself to a small Kit Kat.(5.5 syns). Well ...... It is Wednesday!!  :)

Not a good day :(

Today has not been a good one food wise :(

Don't get me wrong - I haven't overdone the syns or gone completely off plan, it's just that I don't feel I have made healthy choices! I had banana on toast for breakfast (HEb) together with a yoghurt. Not too bad? I guess not.

I saved rice from dinner last night for my lunch. Good? Yes. I read in my Free Branded Foods book that M&S tinned chunky steak was free so had a small can of that with it and added peas. Normally I like casseroled steak but this was just not nice! I ended up feeling really stuffed but not in a good way. Definitely not for me, so won't be repeating it. Will have to persuade someone else (wonder who?!) to eat the other tin I have. I treated myself to mango, pineapple and kiwi from the supermarket this morning, so thought that might make lunch feel better. Come to think of it now I felt so full that half the packet I left in the fridge at work is still there!

Only had to cook for myself tonight. Felt really uninspired as you can see! The grapes were so good though!

Have eaten my chocolate cake (see earlier post) and will have hot milk before I go to bed. (HEa). Oh yes........ I forgot, I had a hobnob biscuit this afternoon ......3.5 syns methinks!

Have had better days.

Chocolate cake? Surely not!

Last week at class I won the raffle! My prize was everything to make a cake in a mug. So tonight I grabbed 2 minutes to make it and it wasn't at all bad. If I was ordering it somewhere it's not what I would expect but I will definitely make it again for a treat!
In the mug

Plain cake

And with yoghurt!

Three ingredients only and a minute and a half in the microwave. Teamed up with some delicious Liberte natural yoghurt it was only 2 syns! It staved any cravings for something sweet and was quite filling. Will have to try a slightly different flavour next time!