I did manage to eat a small carvery meal so that was a plus and only drank diet coke. It was the conversation and company that was good for me and none of it was about food, which is a revelation for me. Usually as soon as I arrange to meet someone, and since I retired that is almost always for lunch and on occasion dinner, I am planning where and what I am going to eat. It seems to be the focus instead if who I am meeting! I do try to stick to plan but we all know it is so easy to hide syns, especially from ourselves! Well, in the past two or three weeks my focus seems to have changed. I am no longer thinking about food most of the time and it really doesn't bother me if I don't eat. I can't believe I am saying that! The trouble is, SW tells you to eat and eat plenty. So now there is this completely different battle going on inside my head. I don't want to eat, but a little voice is telling me I should. My relationship with food has never been an easy one, and now it is not easy for completely the opposite reason.
At one point today I thought I should just give up. I always say that although I don't appear to lose much weight these days I still go to class or else I would put weight on. In my heart I know that is true but I do feel a bit of a fraud or a failure in class each Wednesday. So, I decided to look at some old photos. That was a bit of a revelation as I suddenly saw my old self again. I think that I still look the same but I could see that I don't. On Saturday I literally bumped into my old SW consultant and she told me how good I was looking and how much younger I looked. I think she said it was my longer hair that was doing that but hey, a compliment is a compliment! Anyway, take a look for yourself - a before and a now photo! What do you think?
Before SW!
Last week!
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