I am rubbish ........Part Deux.

Oh yes I am! Why does something like food defeat me? After all in almost every other walk of my life I am in control, and in some cases, total control. What is it about food that sends me into complete mayhem where I don't feel I am managing anything? Anyone have any answers? I am not unintelligent. I set myself all sorts of targets and goals - most of which I attain - eventually! I am aware that I am probably prone to addiction. I am ashamed to say that for many many years I chewed my nails. I conquered that when I set my mind to it. Until I was 36 I smoked - and by that I mean 20 plus  a day. I stopped overnight. From the moment I made the decision until now I have NEVER had another cigarette nor been tempted to. A few years ago I gave up alcohol, (except for very special occasions). Again this was not a problem. So why not food???????

Admittedly I don't think about it as much as I used to but I just can't seem to take the upper hand. I know I want to weigh less. I know why and when for but none of that makes a dent in this real problem relationship I have with food. I need to truly understand it I think before I can wrestle back control.

Anyway Friday went like this:

Cheese (HEa) and crackers (HEb) for breakfast with fruit and a few nuts (syns but I'm not sure how many. 5 maybe?)

Lunch was chicken and salad:

So far so good and dinner was healthy- SW cottage pie with loads of spinach:

Saturday could have been a danger as it was hairdresser day so I started with 2 boiled eggs as that seems to keep me feeling full for much longer. Although I took a banana and a HiFi with me I didn't eat them. After hair was done I made for Giardino's. Never been there before. I asked for a salad of beans, potato, onions etc and got such a huge plateful! I could only eat half of it! 

You see - I can make good choices. The paninis and baguettes looked wonderful but my conscience would not let me go there!

Second recipe from the Fakeaway booking the evening - Sechuan Beef. It was yummy!

So on to Sunday and starting the day with boiled egg, crispbreads and fruit again (I rarely get bored with this!) lunch was jacket potato with beans, followed by fruit and yoghurt. As it was Sunday - roast lamb for dinner. Not one of my favourites so I concentrated on the vegetables! Made SW roast potatoes teamed up with peas and cauliflower.

Had enough yet? No? Well let's just skate through Monday and then we are just about up to date! Yoghurt and fruit for breakfast. I must admit I am tiring of this a little though perhaps once the summer fruits are in abundance it will make a big difference.

I made goulash from The Little Lunch Book on Sunday ready for lunch on Monday and Tuesday. I added peas and followed up with satsumas for a planned and healthy lunch!

So just dinner to sort. I had no inspiration and with only myself to cook for I opted for the easy option - omelette. I have to say it looks a darn sight better than it tasted! Very plain and uninteresting is all I can say but I can only blame myself for that!